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ughhh the past lets vent.story one.

so im here at 12:38 in the morning on june 3 2011 thinking of my past. wow what a thing to wake up for . i just cant sleep now , i just keep thinking about everything i’ve done wrong. from hurting so many of my friends and family cause of decisions i have made. and i think of the friendship i miss i ust to see him everyday and all that just vanished he would drive me to go out and eat after church and yet i find out about his son last minute . i thought i was falling for him but all i found out was i just loved what he did i didnt really love him i just loved the fact that he payed attention to me, he cared i could vent to him. his family was like mine. i called his dad daddy hahhaha it was amazing how close i was to them. i wished i really had a dad like that. all went wrong when i started to develop feelings for him. he got more angry and just idk. he was different he wassnt the same guy i fell for. he was the stressed out guy with an abusive girlfriend with that baby boy of his. i love that kid but i was too afraid to get too close. we spent the whole july-january together. got me presents. made me laugh. FOREVER 21 GIFT CARD!!!! lol hahahaah and red robins<3 he called me on new year drunk saying he loved me . me being the wowed out girl actually thinking he would even look at a girl like me belived him wow ahahah so much for love.well hey its all good we’re friends best of it i still love him but as a brother this son damian is adorable girl girlfriend now is going to be his wife and now my feelings for him remain a mystery. i have so much respect for him and if he could read this i want to apologize to him saying i was wrong people can change for the better and so should i cause now i do know better just too bad we dont see each other anymore i miss him. well i guess this cleared up my whole guilt chain. just needed to get this out . im sorry cire for everything i hope we can still be family ur my bast kuya ever.<3